BECOMING A GOTH
I saw my transformation as a gift, but others seemed to think I had contracted some dark disease. I never would have become as strong and confident as I am now without my newfound gothic-ness. My father was disgusted with me, and I had to fight an inner struggle for a long time to be free of his influence in my life. I was extremely shy and a loner throughout most of high school, but in my senior year I discovered that I no longer cared what people thought of me. I was sick of being what others wanted me to be. So I threw out every stitch of “nice” clothing I had. It was like taking a great weight off my shoulders to be honest. On a trip to Oklahoma with some friends, I made a small detour to a store in Wichita. I bought myself some Tripps and a single shirt. It was what I was wearing when I came home. My father tried to send me to my room, but I refused to go. I told him to get used to what he saw because it was what I wanted to be. He got angry and left. My mother looked me up and down and said, ” You look great. Don’t change.” This was shortly before they split. Now I have more inner strength and power than I ever could have thought possible in those day. Now, thanks to my dark disease, I am free.
thanks this article has kinda helped, I’ve been seriously thinking about going goth and wanting to but I’m scared of what my parents will think(I’ve indirectly told my mom) and about school. I’m kinda self conscious so you might understand. I started to wear more black and my mom knows that that’s my style and one of my favorite colors(black,red,purple, and dark blue) but she doesn’t know it’s tied to being goth. Can you help me?
Comment by Nicole Rawlins — August 9, 2010 @ 11:27 am
My suggestion would be to start off slow – slow changes people do not notice much – especially around home. In school you can be a little more free to be yourself. You can put stuff in your backpack (assuming your parents don’t check your stuff) keep your goth stuff in your locker and dress a little more goth in school. As far as makeup slow changes will help you transition if you do too much to fast parents kinda get weirded out. Good luck. Please let me know if I can help more. Gemolis
Comment by admin — August 12, 2010 @ 10:42 am